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nsfw alphabet - nam-gyu (player 124)
(it contains things like degrading, threesomes, and nam-gyu being an asshole tbh, if you arenāt into that i wouldnāt read this x)
saw this on @cybrasigilism ās page, you should really check that out ! (love their writing btw)
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A = Aftercare (what theyāre like after sex)
- sorry to burst your bubble but his aftercare is probably none existent, he might hand you the tv remote afterwards but thatās about it.
B = Body part (their favorite body part of theirs and also their partnerās)
- 100% his hands, obviously he had to add some rings, because he knows girls like you will go crazy over it. favorite part about you is most likely your boobs or your ass (basic am i right?)
C = Cum (anything to do with cum, basically)
- he for sure has a breeding kink (who said that haha)
D = Dirty secret (pretty self explanatory, a dirty secret of theirs)
- a dirty secret about namgyu is the fact he would to have a trio with thanos and you, the thought of seeing thanos fucking you turns him on more than he would like to admit.
E = Experience (how experienced are they? do they know what theyāre doing?)
- i think he has had a lot of one night stands, so he knows what he is doing.
F = Favorite position (this goes without saying)
- he loves when you are on top of him, that way he can look at your body all he wants, the way your boobs bounce when he is thrusting into you, how you are so out of breath after a few rounds, he loves it.
G = Goofy (are they more serious in the moment? are they humorous? etc.)
- i donāt think he is very humorous in bed, he doesnāt even think about making a joke in the moment because he is so focused.
H = Hair (how well groomed are they? does the carpet match the drapes? etc.)
- i donāt think he has a insane bush, but lets just say he isnāt perfectly trimmed either.
I = Intimacy (how are they during the moment? the romantic aspect)
- he sees you as a fuckbuddy, good for fucking. he isnāt looking for a relationship so he probably isnāt that romantic.
J = Jack off (masturbation headcanon)
- he looks up your (or your friends insta) and jerks off to your photos.
K = Kink (one or more of their kinks)
- i feel like he would love tying you up, seeing how you arenāt able to move while he gets to do whatever he wants. (and knife play ..anyways!)
L = Location (favorite places to do the do)
- definitely in places where you COULD get caught like, fittings rooms & public restrooms.
M = Motivation (what turns them on, gets them going)
- praise 1000%
āBet youāve never been fucked like this huh?ā he says out of breath grabbing your chin, at this point itās almost impossible for you to talk, itās like he fucked your brains out. You decide to nod.
āFucking speak upā he says glaring at you.
ān-namgyu please, i need y-you pleaseā you manage to puff out.
N = No (something they wouldnāt do, turn offs)
- anal.
O = Oral (preference in giving or receiving, skill, etc.)
- he loves receiving especially when you suck him off. but he is also a munch, he loves going down on you. he could do it for hours.
P = Pace (are they fast and rough? slow and sensual? etc.)
- he is very rough and fast, itās almost like hate fucking, nothing sensual about it.
Q = Quickie (their opinions on quickies, how often, etc.)
- he loves quickies, especially in the games he would find places where he could quickly release his stress onto you.
R = Risk (are they game to experiment? do they take risks? etc.)
- i think he has tried a lot already but will try all sorts of stuff on you.
S = Stamina (how many rounds can they go for? how long do they last?)
- depends if he is under the influence of something, if heās taken something? he could go on for hours on end. if he is sober heāll probably pass out after a good 40 minutes.
T = Toys (do they own toys? do they use them? on a partner or themselves?)
- he doesnāt own or use toys, he feels like his hand are good enough to keep you satisfied.
U = Unfair (how much they like to tease)
- he is such a tease, you definitely need to wait before you can cum and heāll make sure you beg for it.
V = Volume (how loud they are, what sounds they make, etc.)
- i donāt think he moans, he is more like a grunts guy. i feel like he talks a lot tho. (cursing and degrading you obvi)
W = Wild card (a random headcanon for the character)
- it kinda turns him on when you try to be bossy for once, telling him what to do and what he isnāt aloud to do.
X = X-ray (letās see whatās going on under those clothes)
- he has a average body, leaning more towards a dad bod than a jacked up guy tho.
Y = Yearning (how high is their sex drive?)
- his sex drive is hiiigh, he always feels horny and is always in for a quickie.
Z = Zzz (how quickly they fall asleep afterwards)
- give him ten minutes and he is gone.
english isnāt my first language so if i made any mistakes, i apologize x
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Can we have some of ur mouthwashing headcanons for the tulpar crew? (Can be about anything btw) The brain worms are getting hungry again I fearā¦ š
-ig ill be šŖ· anon if itās not taken yet?
HELLOOO BABYYYY sorry this took so long i was dying bc of my finals </3 but anyways welcome šŖ· anon to the family!!!!!! these hcs ended up so unserious LOL
the crew got banned from playing uno after anya nearly flipped the table when daisuke put down like five +4 cards in a row now they just stick to sorry!
swansea hums to himself when he's working, it's usually like old songs but recently daisuke's pop songs have been getting stuck in his head. (i think it would be unbelievably funny if swansea starts singing like the brainrot versions of songs js bc daisuke keeps playing them. yk like the 'oh the weather outside is rizzy, and the fire is so skibidi' LMAOSKJDSK
daisuke doesn't really have a specific music taste, he listens to a mix of everything. doesn't know how to answer when people ask him what his fave genre is so he tries to act cool and says he only listens to rap music.
anya had a wattpad phase. i can't explain further i can just FEEL it.
curly is actually a decent dancer. his mom sent him for dance classes as a kid and he has a good sense of rhythm. jimmy makes fun of him for this though so he doesn't ever mention it.
jimmy has rewatched american psycho probably more than 117 times. he watches it and he's like:
(i am currently watching + reading it for the first time and patrick bateman is literally jimmy to me.) more content utc!
anya is terrible in the kitchen. like seriously do Not let her in there or the house will burn down just from her boiling water or smth. it's okay tho i will be her housewife <3 (i can't cook either) she is also very good at tetris for some reason. she's a little forgetful so she usually writes things that she needs to remember on the back of her hands but by the end of the day they're all smudged smh. but also she always has perfect nails!
curly is one of those guys who's just naturally good at things. yk when people are like 'oh yeah i never practice' and it pisses you off? he's one of those guys. ik ppl say he's british but he's so american to me??? he was definitely the jock in highschool that every girl crushed on but he never even realised.
swansea is a dog person. he's chill w cats but he definitely prefers dogs. he likes how loyal they are, and i can see him having a massive dog like a st bernard at home waiting for him. but if his kids ever brought back a kitten or smth he'd be the one to be all 'you guys better take care of it bc i won't' but then you see him becoming besties with the cat LOL.
daisuke LOVES the beach. literally a water baby. he's very good at surfing, and always ends up with a tan that makes him look even more handsome bc it compliments his dyed hair so nicely. i think that he grew up in a big family w lots of cousins around where he would be one of the older kids, so he's very good w children as well. he somehow knows the best way to entertain them and keep them out of trouble. (primary school art teacher daisuke are you guys seeing my vision?!?!?!)
jimmy gets nightmares and thus has difficulty sleeping. he lies whenever curly asks him about it but those dark circles say otherwise. this might be random but i also think he's good at singing. in another world he could have been a sleazy rockstar but instead he went to space. are u guys seeing the visual of jimmy laying back in bed strumming his banged-up electric guitar... i hate this mf.
anyways that's all for now! i had a lot of fun w these hehe <3 hope you liked them!
#( mouthwashing )#mouthwashing#daisuke mouthwashing#anya mouthwashing#curly mouthwashing#jimmy mouthwashing#swansea mouthwashing#[ into the yuzuvrse ]#[ webmail ]#:: šŖ· anon#jimmy mw#curly mw#anya mw#swansea mw#daisuke mw
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Hi love!
you could write something about Tommy where they are a bit possessive of the reader but a non-toxic sweet possessive type that is all the time saying 'my wife' every time he says her name he makes sure to say that she is his wifeš„¹ If you could put a little bit of jealousy where maybe someone sees her too much and he makes sure to move his hand down a little further than her back so they know she's definitely his wifešāāļø
And the reader is SO proud to be his wife! She even leaves him a kiss on the tip of his nose and he turns red and tight because well it's Tommy 'š¤'
Sorry I have cramps these days and I just want something sweetš„ŗš„ŗā„ļøā„ļøPlease take it only if you are comfortable, I send you love!š«
ps. I love your work, you are amazing at this!š«¶š»
i hope your cramps go away! also hope you like this. sending you love back š«¶š»š©·
his wife. thomas shelby
warnings; jealous thomas, michael wants u lol
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everyone who knew you, knew that you were thomas's wife, because that's how he introduced you: "y/n, my wife."
on your finger lays a beautiful golden ring, a promise that you would soon become his property foreverā¦ it's not like you weren't already; you belong to shelby from the moment he laid his eyes on you and worked hard to conquer you. the ring was simply a promise to make it official.
you two were engaged, but he already presented you to everyone as his beautiful wife.
sometimes you even thought you might forget your own name since everyone called you "shelby's girl."
the gypsy was proud that everyone knew their place well. no man who wanted to keep his eyes spent more than five seconds looking at you, not if they truly valued their lives.
there were many bad men outside, many dangerous people who would not hesitate to hurt you to get to him... that's why he was always watching you, keeping you close where his eyes could see you.
everyone knew their places, except for someone: his damn cousin.
michael was centimeters from your body, making some jokes that he couldn't hear due to the distance in which he was from the two of you, but jokes that made you laugh out loud.
his hand clenched tightly around his glass of whiskey, watching the exchange of laughter between the two of you.
no one at the party had noticed his anger, except arthur. his brother looked at him seriously, giving him a nod, showing him that he also understood what was happening.
he thought it was enough.
thomas slammed the glass hard on the table and seriously addressed you, the music ringing in his ears with annoyance.
as soon as he reached you, his hand went to your hip. "doll." he said, squeezing the skin that your dress hid. "michael." he greeted his cousin too.
"cousin." gray greeted, making a grimace with his mouth that imitated a smile.
"is something wrong, love?" your sweet and naive voice reaches his ears and made his serious gaze finally detach from his relative and address you.
"no. just wanted to be close to my wife." he responded, smiling at you for a second before turning completely serious again and looking back at michael.
the youngest noticed how thomas's hand on your hip went down to your ass and stayed there, holding his palm firmly against you.
"you should go, michael." shelby spoke again. "gina was looking for you." his eyes and hard expression told gray everything he needed to understand, and the boy looked into his eyes for a moment before nodding.
"see you, mrs shelby." he murmured in a tone of voice that you couldn't understand but thomas did. he fucking did understand.
when you were both finally alone, you turned to look at thomas with a smile, totally naive and oblivious to everything that was happening.
his blue eyes looked at you fondly, with desire. you couldn't help but leave a small kiss on his nose, watching him smirk.
"my wife." your fiancƩ uttered, giving you a squeeze. "i can't wait for everyone to leave so i can have my doll all to myself."
#thomas shelby x reader#peaky blinders x reader#peaky blinders fluff#tommy shelby x reader#tommy shelby fluff
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āMistakes on mistakes untilā ch 69 spoilers below!
Ahahahahahahah here I go again
Mistakes on mistakes until until I can draw Jazz with my eyes closed
I woke up, checked my phone, woke up for real and decided that whatever plans I had for this day yeah no they can wait a little bit kfkgnfk
Also. Consider listening this while reading. Or don't who am I to tell you what to do~
#maccadam#transformers#Jazz#Meister#Starscream#L I S T E N#I THINK#The āJazzā is a hologram and āMeisterā is the Real Jazz#because yeah It totally makes sense. Soundwave touched Meister so Meister must be real. And Hound could just create the hologram of Jazz#but....b u t#I can't stop thinking that there's might be something more#like...Hound wasn't exactly wery well hidden. For the love of god STArScream saw him and talked about him#and we all know than Soundwave is a fucking all seeing eye of Sauron when it comes to watching suspicious activity#I...fuckin...listen ok#Meister's plan with second Jazz is so damn clever bc it would literally show to Soundwave how Jazz and Meister can stand in the same room#but I can't help but feel that Sounders is inevitably going to discover Hound and unlike Starscream he surely knows what Hounds āthingā is#or maybe I'm just paranoid. .#maybe Jazz..I mean Meister knows something I don't#i mean duh of course he does#augh I need to stop before by brain spins itself to shreds#This fic made me overthink every detail with double intensity haha#Also. ALSO. We might see the confrontation between Meister and Jazz I feel. we might. it makes me want to giggle for some reson kgkgkg#fic fanart#momu fanart
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also i think if roleswap laios and canon laios met theyd immediately start fighting.
#canon laios would blurt out 'why do you look like our dad' and fisticuffs ensue.#shuro........ is a little more complicated#if canon shuro doesnt think too hard about it and just treats the other him like a stranger then theres no problem#on the other hand i imagine he holds himself to high standards and if he sees his other self doing things he considers improper or uncouth.#i imagine hed only speak up if he saw it happen A Lot like hed pull him aside like hey... what the fuck#thered be a bit of 'holy shit i woulda turned out like THAT??' on both sides#roleswap shuro would often get frustrated but i think hed understand that like. thats how the culture is like he lived it too#but i think similarly hed watch laios steamroll og shuro and eventually be like. DUDE. just say something#shorter fuse lmao. anyways still turning this AU over in my head#how much more forward can shuro be before hes unbelievably out of character...#and what if they switched universes!!!!#if laios switched. it would be immediately obvious something is up in the og universe but it may be chalked up to like#a weird mood..... though maybe the party starts to wonder 'hey... is it not possible this is a shapeshifter' š#but og laios in the roleswap universe...#tbh havent thought too hard on what the party dynamics in that universe might be like assuming all else is the same save for the roleswap#i imagine chilchuck would still get on alright as long as hes being paid upfront and laios is still attentive/ recognises his abilities#and limitations also. marcille................................... hmm#she might treat him more formally and be less close.... may perceive him as more threatening at first meeting#(in terms of like. 'taking falin away' i mean if that makes sense)#but well. u kno how in canon laios Does notice a lot of things about his companions and has a very pragmatic view that surprises them#and they dont tend to notice until he says it aloud because its often overlooked cos of his. everything else.#well. id imagine roleswap laios still notices things but simply would not say it aloud.#the party would also be like .. dude... did he hit his head#if SHURO swapped...................... well it depends when exactly it happened#i imagine it could be a bigger issue with the retainers#im losing steam cos my lower back hurt so bad adgfsdfg i cant get a good position on this chair#but for shuro himself i imagine it would be nightmarish lmao.#roleswap (henceforth RS) shuro would wake up as an adult with the retainers like. ??? was that all a dream?? did i never make it out#meanwhile og shuro ending up god knows where..........#if he ended up with the retainers again he might not immediately realise somethings amiss and try to act normally
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hi hi !! loveee your blog so far, itās v nice to see more hetalia writers popping up again. if youāre interested in tackling this request, iād like to see your take on how a yandere romano would deal with feelings of jealousy in regards to his darling getting a little too close than what his insecure brainās comfortable with to his brother veneziano? š«¶š
tysm! these are still yandere hcs, but i actually ended up also doing a small character study. iāve been wanting to do those more recently so if youāre interested send in a request! bonus points if itās not a super popular character. + this came out a lot longer than intended, so enjoy.
This is something Lovino would not be able to handle.
He has spent centuries trying to navigate the minefield that is the relationship with his brother--with varying degrees of success. One thing that has remained constant, however, is the fact that people overwhelmingly prefer his younger brother.
Romano has seemingly tried everything. Careful imitation, acting the complete opposite, sabotaging from the shadows, acting as right-hand man, you name it. Nothing has seemed to stick.
Even now, heās invisible. Reduced to the lesser half a whole. Forever shackled to his brother, effectively prevented from exercising his own agency.
Itās never fun to be stuck in someone's shadow, but for the person whose shadow you're stuck in to be so unflinchingly blasĆ© about it? For one to be as stuck as long as Lovino has? Being forcefully denied your own personhood like that often breeds contempt. Hatred like that can simmer under the surface for decades, even centuries before bubbling over and being noticed by others. Holding hatred like that for so long as he has? Itās almost enough to drive someone mad.
But when he gets you and has something of his own for once he relaxes a bit. Thereās no need to be on edge, to constantly put on airs, because he has someone in his corner. Someone who has taken the time to know him on a deep, personal level. Someone, who despite his faults, is willing to love him, and in turn trusts him enough to love them back. That alone is enough to satiate him, to quiet his restless mind, and dull the sharp blade of self-hatred thatās been lingering within him for so long.
So when he discovers you calmly conversing with the man who has unknowingly tormented him for so long, he almost does not know what to do with himself.
Itās almost as if heās on autopilot, mindlessly drifting over to where the two of you stand, immediately trying to assess the situation.
Ā In your eyes, the conversation with Veneziano was just much overdue. It was impolite to not introduce yourself to someone so close to your partner. Lovino would never say so, but sometimes the refusal to introduce you to his loved ones felt intentional. Whenever you would press the issue, he would hastily arrange a meeting to calm you down. It worked a few times; you got to meet a few of his friends, and even his pseudo-guardian/older brother/ mentor (you never were quite sure of the nature of their relationship), but you never got the chance to meet Veneziano. Occasions where you two were set to meet would mysteriously get canceled due to unforeseen circumstances. You also noticed that he would always get strangely cagey at the mention of his younger brother.Ā
At first, he would try to covertly sow discord between the two of you, in hopes that you would have a falling-out. In his mind, if he could manufacture situations to make you see his brotherās shortcomings, you wouldnāt want to be around him.
When he discovers, to his horror, that you have grown closer to his brother despite the careful machinations, he would spiral.
To you and Veneziano, your friendship is as right as rain, completely unforced, and a natural progression. After knowing each other peripherally for so long, making friends with you just makes sense.
But to Romano, this is yet another event point, in a seemingly infinite pattern of behavior. Time and time again, Romano finds something of his own, takes a liking to it, starts to cherish it, but only until Veneziano comes along and tries to take it. HeĀ alwaysĀ manages, because he isĀ alwaysĀ successful in everything that he does. Afterwards, Romano is then left with nothing but more hatred to swallow and another large bruise on his ego. He canāt let it happen again, not this time, not after cultivating a relationship so pure, not like this, not-
He devises to stop it. Whatever it is between the two of you. Immediately.
Lovino, who has always been romantic, will up the ante. You suddenly find yourself whisked away on trips abroad more often than you are sat at home. How could you find the time to catch up with his brother when you have a date that night, another trip to pack for? To you, it seems as though you have entered a second honeymoon phase in your relationship. Unbeknownst to you, heās tirelessly working to separate you. He shall get Veneziano away before he tries to take what is rightfully his for the umpteenth time.
Before your increased contact with Veneziano, your relationship was, by all accounts, normal.
You met Lovino by happenstance, and your romance blossomed at a pace that felt comfortable and right. He was nothing but loving and attentive, if a bit temperamental at times. But after you meet his brother, you notice a palpable shift in his attitude. He snaps at people more and always seems to be in deep thought. But heās kinder in some ways as well. Heās now always concerned about your safety and likes to know where youāre going beforehand, not after the fact like you used to do. He figured out that you love the gifts he gets you, so you now receive way more of them. Heās more appreciative of everything you do as well. So much so that one day, after a particularly elaborate meal, he suggests you quit your job to take care of the home. To his delight, you eventually agree, but any joy is quickly stamped out when he hears you happily explaining your new living arrangement to his brother.
He canāt stand it really, as his mind sails through countless scenarios, unearthing trauma he thought had been resolved (or safely buried) since the early Renaissance. He doesn't know why his mind takes him in this direction, but then again he doesn't know a lot of things. He doesn't know why efforts to separate the two of you don't work, or why nothing he does ever seems to work. Why is it that he is never enough? Why, after so many attempts and failures, did Grandfather never really seem to grow fond of him?Ā
After yet another night of being forced to confront these long-dormant worries, he decides enough is enough. If you cannot take the hints he has so kindly given you, then he will separate the two of you by force.
Long gone are your days of exploring the city alone. No more impromptu cafe trips, walks around the park, or unsupervised trips to the post office. You are expected to stay at home, and at home you stay.
āAmore mio, itās too dangerous out there,ā he says. āThereās nothing nearby worth seeing, and you know how I feel about you driving.ā
And you believe him because why wouldnāt you? He cares for you more than anyone! More than your coworkers, your friends who stopped visiting, or even your family who mysteriously donāt care enough to call anymoreā¦
And just like that, you have been delegated to remain in the domicile. Showering him and only him with your seemingly infinite divine grace for as long as time permits it.
Itās so simple that he regrets not doing it sooner.
As for his ingrate brother, he will do anything to ensure he does not go sniffing anywhere he need not be.Ā
It takes nothing to ruin Venezianoās reputation. To oust him as an incompetent womanizer. Someone whose words of concern should never be taken seriously.
To Lovino, it is well worth it. Heāll put an end to the madness, he must. Even if it means making you unhappy, or betraying his own blood, or dirtying his hands with sin, or being at the receiving end of your icy gaze for the rest of eternity.
But you arenāt unhappy, are you now? Youāre over the moon, and why wouldnāt you be? You are given everything you need and more. Besides, Lovino doesn't like it when you frown.
āLook happy now. You have no reason not to,ā he always says.
#hetalia x reader#yandere hetalia#hetalia headcanons#hws romano#hws italy#if you caught any of the references to dante's inferno i love you#but if you caught any of the references to purgatorio...ik what you are...#iāll be so honest with you#romano is soooooo interesting to me#like he has lived a life marred by such deep trauma#which is to be expected bc of what he is (an eldritch abomination)#but on top of that he grew up fundementally unloved#or at least not as coddled or well-regarded as his peers#and that's done such a number on his psyche you can even see it in canon#he is so full of spite#you can't tell me that he doesn't actively root against feli#i want to watch him snap and really beat his brothers ass i'll be so honest with u#also yeah one might argue referencing an italian poet in a post abt the italy brothers is corny but idc SUE ME#if you like posts like this pls let me know!#requests are open donāt be afraid to send smth in
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you ever just think about. āYou are diseased, albeit a disease of our own making. No more.ā you ever just. oh, they made him and they discarded him. itās never going to be quiet again for him, and thatās just collateral. they let the sound rot through his whole life, his whole timeline. because thatās the kind of easy sacrifice you can make when you want to save yourself above everything else, one that doesnāt ask anything of you. you dig open a childās mind and you bury your survival inside him and when he follows the noise back home, when he does exactly what you groomed him for, you call him ruined for it. thatās. you ever just think about that.
#itās genuinely such a horrifying sixkening thing that they unveil. what was done to the master.#and itās like. itās so important that he is awful. he really is. but he still does not deserve to have had this done to him.#the drums are a tragedy that cannot. would not. be a punishment earned no matter how terrible he is.#theyāre such a violation of his mind. isolating and constant and violent. and it drives me insane that this is just. in the show. okay cool#ill never be normal again.#they literally pulled his head open. during a ceremony that we. as far as i know. have to assume is not exactly voluntary. and is at the#best of times. already traumatic and horrifying. but they went into that moment and they put the drums in his head and they made him into#something repulsive to them. because they did that to him! in this thing alone the master had no agency and no way out and this thing that#was done *to* him is what makes him. to them. a broken thing now past its usefulness now that heās done what they wanted him to.#sorry im rotating him in my head again and again. this is the thing that makes him ādiseasedā. itās that they chose to do this to him. there#is nothing he could do to not be this. he was a child and there was nothing he could do to stop it from happening. heās an adult and heās#doing the impossible exactly like they shaped him to do and he canāt stop this from having happened to him. so he might as well follow the#drums. and then. and then rassilon calls him diseased. and im going to. lose it.#there was nothing he could have doneā¦ā¦ā¦ā¦..#everywhere else he has choices to make and he can burn the world and keep it as a toy and he can fuck with the doctor and he can do.#anything. anything he wants. but he canāt. thereās nothing he can do to make it stop. thereās nothing he can do to make it so this never#happened to him. and i am spinning in circles here do u see why he makes me insane.#and the doctor doesnāt even really fucking believe him that the drums are real until the master makes him listenā¦ā¦. oh im going to be ill.#doctor who#simm!master#the master
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any time i remember time lord victorious arc i start shaking like a sick fucking dog
#having an extraordinarily hard time watching waters of mars rn literally episode of all fucking time#they dont make them like this anyMOOOOOOOOOORE OHHMY GODDDD#icould talk abt it for hours istg it's so. grips you shakes you shakes you shakes you shakes you sh#the WAYYDYDYDHDHDJDJDJDUJDJDHDJDUDJD THHHEEEE THE THE THE . HTHHEHEH#the way u can see glimpses of what's to come in all 4 seasons but especially in voyage of the#damned and then s4 onwards but u dont realise JUST how much he went insane until now#like there's echoes of this in votd but you might not even pick up on it if you dont Know#n here he's just fully gone it's sooo. IT'S SOOOOOOOOOOO. CHARACTER OF ALL TIME#man so profoundly tragic his entire story is abt speedrunning losing everything and#going insane and dying. and yet he still spends like 20 entire minutes crying and begging not to die. okay#i cant rank drs they're my best friends so idk who my fave dr is but 10's is easily my favourite story it's so. it's SOOO.#anyway sorry. stops shaking you and pats your arms down awkwardly. carry on#doctor who#dw lb#10th doctor#the waters of mars#time lord victorious#i was today years old when i learned there's apparently a whole audio series about it that#came out in the past few years. well i aint listenin to that. everything i need is on my screen already#also. the way most ppl havent even seen these specials coz they're impossible to find online..#even tho waters of mars is like. not just extremely important but also yknow. extremely good
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Getting into stuff that has a lot of pre-announced release dates is really good for me like vocal synthesizer products and new love live etc franchise music releases....I'll be lying in bed at like 2 AM with ur usual 20-something's fear and existentialism over time and the future and then I'll remember a piece of singing software or a new song related to cartoon characters I like is gonna come out like next month and I'm like š
#this keeps happening to me with the upcoming december#miki and kiyoteru sv.....im so excited...if they get delayed ill scream#jk jk ill be fine but i do hope we get some demos in November soon!#soyogi still doesnt have a concrete release date but hes also probably december#now if HE gets delayed i will actually explode. i will spontaneously burst into flames#the other night i had a dream about aivoice2 ryuusei coming out. which is a normal thing to happen#it literally was just like i went online and saw videos people made with him SHDBFBSJFNFN#premonition dream...this is what will happen in november#but it reminded me i wasnt as familiar with how aiv2 sounds with a2sync. i like the aiv1 kotonosync situation#BUT it is very noisy and the vocals usually sound like lalavoice with the slightly obvious looping#which is charming but not as versatile in the grand scheme of talk synths made to sing#just the nature of it. but a2sync sounds FANTASTIC i was really shocked. im curious how his#particularly deep voice will sound compared to a more medium gentle tone like iori but im excited#im really curious how he'll sound compared to vv humming ryuusei#now what weve seen of his design.....im not suuuper into quite yet. its not BAD and well see when its fully out#but i dont care for the blue hair bits. im picky about hair dye in alternate designs#i like his gray black default situation too much. also i DO like how slutty his design is looking#but also it might look um. a little too much for a talk synth? like brother whats going on here#why are u so dressed up to chat ....i guess for fun#then again his aiv1 design was also probably more appropriate for singing synths rather than talking But I like that one more LOL#doesnt matter too much for me though im more interested in the unofficial singing side stuff AHDBFHSHFBDJJD#which also reminds me i hope someday aiv1 vy series can get a aiv2 update#a full singing synth would be nicer but i wouldnt mind a talk turned singing synth. i know everyone hates the aiv vy designs#i dont hate them theyre not great but theyre fine for talk synths. i think nancy is hilarious. white woman jumpscare#im not a huge fan of the main fanon vy designs (theyre good but they dont fit to me) so i dont mind the aiv ones#even if its just two random people SHBFJFAJFJFJSJJF but yeah i hope they get a aiv2 someday#i think it would be fun to make em sing with a2sync hee hee#also on the ll end i am so excited for dia birthday album end of dec#AND all the new liella tunes. i still havent watched the new season because i havent been able to sit down and enjoy it yet#but soon....next week ill have time...sooooooon
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when i say get me OUT OF HERE. yeah ok so i redownloaded the devils app (tinder) and after swiping through all the like spam and couples and random men that popped up and stuff i got to someone and i was like Oh theyre hot they seem cool geeked abt seeing if we match. HALT! is that my friend sams roommate. fuck. right. and is that another gay girl that maybe tried to slide in my dms once but i was so far up film girl's ass at the time i didnt think about it. in their one photo. right. and what's their name? we dont need to talk about it. im sick
#i might just see if we match...#no. is that weird? what are the lines of weird. oh who cares#my fucking dating pool feels like the worlds tiniest puddle. so. i dunno.#abby talks#its actually silly though. hey ive been in your house. lmfao <3#i might also be giving myself too much credit re the other girl. i am not good at reading things i dont know#well and as u can see im not normal about things#me journaling yesterday basically im a creep im a weirdo i dont fit in i dont want to fit in what the hell am i doing here i dont belong he
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is it autism or is it a symptom of previous longterm social isolation and lack of agency ?
#i think. im not good at being a person.#ive finally gotten some alone time and i am reflecting. and well.#i dont think you can make me socially aware ^-^ i dont think i'll ever get good at it.#i donknow why ^-^š and i dont think it matters š#i think hes getting tired of me alreadyyyy......#and i think. lots of other ppl . dont see me wout him already also.#ive managed this already... impressive ^-^#but the japanese international girls like me so !!! it doesnt matter !!! i have. two nice friends. and 1 intimidating friend.#i will not get bullied or made fun of or be in ungetoutable bad situations bc of. mafia friend.#and then i will recharge and be silly around. nice friends.#i think the fact that im actively thinking about this. doesnt do anything for my case.#i think. im getting masking lessons. when i hang out w him. if it really is the autism. and im failing a little bit.#he thinks ive got anxiety. šš psych major ass. sorry. my roommates also psych major. why are they. talkers.#theyre scawy.#they both got adhd too. whats with that#anyway.#i want to get a haircut.#and hes like. well. hes literally 4 real a model. and his mom was a model. and all his friends were. guess what. models.#so. scary. so i will go to a shitty salon w a nice normal level of social skill friend and then not say anything i think.#i love yapping on here this is awesome. i can just say anytging.#non u know me in real life#how did i end up making friends w the most 'popular guy' guy in the world this is so stressful.#everyone likes him. there are ppl who only talk to me to get an idea of where he might be at. what happened.#howd i go from friendless loser to. loser but in a completely different friend environment. friends w guy who is too good at making friends#but chooses to hang out w me ? does he choose to do that. is it all coincidence?#how did i get here. it really doesnt feel real#i want. to . explode.#yknow i never even really talked to boys before this also. wtf. wtf..#i have only been saying nice things so far i think but i think its important to know that he. scares me. hes so from bc.#i have always been scared of island ppl theyre. all so mad always. and guess what he is too. and yet here i am.
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chuuya can secretly play the guitar send
#it fits him so so well#like ooh#an electric guitar#arctic monkeys esque songs u know#he bought one just bc it looked cool#an all black one#and then he was like u know what.. might as well see if i can play it#then he decided it was actually fun#but hes embarrassed >:( he won't tell anyone about it#and you walk in on him playing it one time when he's not expecting you#guitarist chuuya ... drools.#thoughts źØ
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hate how im now at a point where im legit like kicking my legs and grinning like an idiot over fictional characters SEND HELP
#take One Guess who im talking about. YES ITS KOI BOI#hes so prettyyyyy and cute and lovely and i love looking at him i wanna hear him speak and laugh and sing just AAAAAAAAAAAA#(turns to my own brain) BITCH WE ARE MEANT TO BE AROACE WHY ARE YOU IN LOVE WITH TWO FICTIONAL CRIMINALS WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU DOING?????#my brain: (that fuckin anime girl gif from evangelion (i think??))#like fuuuuuck man is it self shipping if u use a proxy? like. hes an oc but he's a stand in for me. he is me and i am him but we also arent#he is his own person and i am my own our lives are very very different but i use him to express love for Mad Dog and Koi Boy#cause they could actually love him if i were in their world i wouldnt stand a chance but my boy has one so he loves them for me#its far easier to imagine him kissing them than it is for me to imagine myself kissing them but that might be because im wired weird#idk it *feels* like it counts yknow. my dumbass out here gettin jealous when i see a Certain Ship cause like i disagree with it on#a Fundamental Level. and on TOP of that half the time the art is so CUTE and im like 'motherfucker that should be ME' or i guess my lad but#STILL am i making sense?? doesnt help that i worry im like. misreading what content i have but also fuck you i can do what i want and also#i get him more than yall kgyugkhjhk (jk jk. Unless) basically when i call them my boyfriends i fuckin mean it#look its Real Missing Nishiki Hours i love him i wanna kiss his perfect face someone shoulda shown him love i could save him and he could#make me worse <3 I Want Him#and do not get me wrong i may be focused on him but Majima is still my wifey too!!! hes mine you cant have her <3#i just have koi boy brainrot i very much desire them Both (YES THAT MIGHT BE WHY I SHIP THEM TOO LOOK I ALSO THINK THEYD WORK WELL TOGETHER#OR AT LEAST HAVE A FUN DYNAMIC TO EXPLORE I SHOULD DATE THEM AND THEY SHOULD DATE EACH OTHER WE ALL HAVE 2 HANDS)#might delete this in the mornin who knows but im feelin silly i wanna talk about them i wanna talk about my boy but idk if ppl would really#GET IT yknow i can think of maybe Two People and that INCLUDES bestie but just aaaa point is i love my koi boy so much hes so lovely <3 <3
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You know one of those guys that thinks "he is one of the good ones" and is like man every time we talk i lose more trust in you :|
#and is like i wish at least you knew#you arent one of the good guys at all flfkddksksks#i dont know if im the one who is gonna tell you because i just think i have better things to do with my time but i hope you notice dude#is one of those that shits on other for being mysoginist or whatever when he does worse himself and is like#wow can you believe they insinuate i might be sexist....#and is like yeah man i can believe it#the new thing was me (gay) comenting 'wow shocking i heard this company is funding conversion camps? do you know something about it??'#and he being like 'well good luck finding people with money who are cartoonish evil š'#and is like my man have 1 standar at least what are u saying ToT#this is also a company that kight offer me a job so is like wow dude are u surprised i might not want to work in somethibg like that#and im looking for verification on the info gkfkdkdkododkskskdkdkls#and he was like 'well you worked with companies founded by X or Y also bad so if you think about it'#and is like yes yes everything is evil i still dont wanna work for people who are gonna use my work to be homophobes whats not clicking ???#cw homophobia#im gonna say it in spanish tio es que eres gilipollas i hoped you had at least 1 standar but i see Not#talks and stuff
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thinking abt this video im watching between two artists chatting and how at some point the painting part of painting becomes the easiest part of painting, and most of the work is actually about the preparation of the piece, and anything else that is more work during the piece is shit that u forgot to cover in ur prep work,,,,
#non art blabbering#because. from my own readings of the masters - and these two do take their teachings from said literature - it's exactly this#it's gurney making mannequettes and setting up lighting; it's bougereau making thumbnails and doing material studies so meticulously they#might as well be pasted onto the final painting itself; it's that one asshole who sculpted a whole ass figure and dragon (and had fun doing#it!) and used that for lighting reference. talking about how that one guy who spent most of his time setting up composition and had his#lil assistants do all the painting for him#thinking abt how my s/o said smthin similar to me the other day that he thinks he can confidently paint anything thanks to his experience#it was a good talk but it was also a little wearying bc while i agree w everything that's said (including do not forget ur whimsy! play!)#these dudes definitely sounded like they smelled their own farts though i do know this is not their intention :skull:#it was an enjoyable talk bc they sorta confirmed a lot of things i had to learn and re-learn on my own post-art school#though ive noticed a lot of art shit lately's also been 'dont get caught up in theory mode and just doing studies!!!'#as somebody who just realized i cld do studies of art i like it's just funny af to see this art tip becoming a trend#atp tho - im just trying to be someone who DOES art at all - study or no study or what have u
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the sword and shield part of the prophecy is soooo vague that iāll rotate every possible theory inside my silly little head and then go āor it could be smth elseā. absolute net zero conclusions reached but i had fun.
#like. i think hak being the sword is one of if not the most popular theories and i can see it bc well. look at the guy#but itās the specifics of the wording that give me pause#āWHEN the four dragons are gathered the sword and shield which will protect the king SHALL AWAKENā#when hakās been there from the beginning + thereās also ik-suās warning that hak will die if yona doesnāt find the dragons#which. thereās definitely ways to interpret him still being the sword (or shield!! thatād also be a neat twist) even with that in mind#but ngl iām also a sucker for the idea that heās just. there bc he loves yona. no connection to the prophecy whatsoever.#like both options make sense to me and i can see either one happening#anyway my personal favorite theory rn is that riri is the either the sword or the shield#not saying itās the most probable option. just the most fun to meeee <3#and ngl it only occurred to me during the latest chapter bc sheās clearly gonna play some kind of role#so itās not like i have like a mountain of compelling evidence but i do have more than just. a feeling#like she has the sociopolitical standing and the ability (or at least pluckiness) to fill either role right?#and she was introduced and grew as a character only after all four dragons were gathered#which fits with some of the only things we know about the sword and the shield#do u see what iām getting at?? am i making any sense at all??#it could also ofc be a literal sword and shield which. tbh i think is the most likely but also less fun to speculate about#anyway i also think tae-jun will have a bigger role to play. either as a part of the prophecy or not#but also how might zenoās recent actions impact the prophecyā¦ā¦. much to think about as always#but thatās enough theorizing for one day! time to grab my iced coffee from the fridge and work on my silly little fic <3#akayona
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